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Curb your enthusiasm.
Great title.
I have never watched Seinfeld. I know what it is about. I know what impact it had. I know it as a reference but don't really feel compelled to watch it. It feels to me like a lot of the 90s stuff: so strongly labelled "early 90s" that it seems outdated from the cover. There are quite a lot of movies, songs, bands, series, tv shows, in this situation...
I might watch Seinfeld on dvd sometime... I feel no urge.
BUT I started watching Curb your Enthusiasm. To be honest I bought the first series not knowing anything about it, just because I thought the title was good.
And I watched it. I got quickly (maybe I checked it on IMDB - nerddddd!) that the main character, Larry David, who is also the creator of the series was the actual creator of Seinfeld. Curb your Enthusiasm is actually a bit awkward: the main character is Larry David, ex-creator of Seinfeld played by Larry David ex-creator of Seinfeld. He is an anti-hero quite annoying and touching at the same time. From my researches I understand that Larry-the-character is actually very close to Larry-the-writer... And strangely enough (not!) Larry-the-character is a pretty confused character. Larry is actually getting himself in all these embarrassing situations that make you feel good as an audience because 1) you can foresee them (makes the audience feel clever) 2) you could be there yourself or have been 3) there were some ways to escape the final dramatic result. The audience could see these safe exit signs. So could Larry but because of his quite predictable attitude the end is always the same: worst case scenario! Again and again and again.
The episode begins and you know already that the Greek tragedy will unfold. You can predict what will happen. You fear the awful outcome and at the same time enjoy watching Larry's getting slowly but surely entangled in an already decided ending that will mix shame and ridicule to perfection. Larry never wins. Larry loses always but he takes pleasure in getting the worst possible outcome. Larry is not a sad character. He is opinionated, he gets irritated, he talks a lot with everybody about anything, his life is easy and free of major worries, his wife is always there, young, actually much younger, sometimes or most of the time quite questioning but still always on his side and supportive. Larry is another Woody. Clever enough to have gotten in a good life. Carrying lots of meaningless worries. Having the world turning against him in lots of silly little annoying episodes. Just enough to keep seeing a shrink and complain around him and delight us with his failing where I could have easily succeeded.
Curb your enthusiasm doesn't particularly make me laugh. I don't really like Larry as a character. But watching these series (I'm in the middle of series 2 now) make me feel better about myself. Every episode is another situation I won't screw up like he does when I'll face it in my life. I know better now!

I am a nerd. Love maths, love quantum physics, love remembering math formulas I learnt years, actually almost decades ago, cannot go to bed if a book, author or theory I know about (or worse, don't: but how could this be!!!) and need to check it on the internet until complete, scientific confirmation. I watch about 5 movies a week. Some I have seen before, most are new. i read less books than I used to, now I would only go for something strongly recommended by a trusted source. My nerdy side comes there because I am not able to not finish a book or stop watching a movie even if I think it is the worst thing ever. I need to know til the end once I have started... you never now! Shit might turn into gold in the last 5 seconds. Actually usually not but hey, how could I even think about missing gold?!
Also I always ALWAYS watch the entire bonus material of a dvd. I need to know. Even if the whole thing was bad. I am so faacinated about people getting involved into a huge production (a movie nowadays that reaches your dvd player or a book being published involve an army of workers and a budget that could save lots of... actually lots of worthy causes - will get another blog on that!). So specially when I get to watch a very bad movie, I get really interested in how such a bad result managed to be on beforehand convincing enough to get the necessary budget, actors to participate and a crue to be loyal til the last clap. I am delighted to see how a quite impressive cast who's been a notorious below average movie(come on! the movie went straight to dvd - you had no chance to see it in a theatre) are still trying to defend the movie. It's not freudenschade, it is just that I find it really crushing when an actor went into something he or she thought was good on paper and tried to give the best performance but for some reason the result is mediocre... The filming and editing can make or break a movie!
How many times have I been involved at work in a project that seemed so straight forward and turned into a Napoleonian russian campaign... And you surely too! The difference between me and Winona Ryder in "The Darwin Awards" (one of the worst movies I have ever seen, seriously!) is that my good or bad dealing in a bad project might get forgotten, but her character in this movie will be available forever.
I am not crying over Winona's difficult life, she is paid enough to make it bearable... Still her chosing this or that movie, trusting, this or that director, crew, or whatever can crush her and send her to has-been land.I am not so worried about her, she is a good actress (she should get better people chosing movies for her though), she is still pretty young, very beautiful and she is an amazing actress, sometimes. I am more worried (yeah, not really in fact, thinking about my next russian campaign!) about these actors and actresses we can't even remember the name... What is worse than a movie you can't ever remember having seen? What is worse than months of involvement of so many people spending so much time and money for something that will have no impact whatsoever on anyone and will not even get into the category of memmorable bad movies but just ffffffffffffff nothing.
I am a geek. I am a nerd. I give a chance to any movie. I watch it all. Some movies get to be watch again. Quite a lot live only for the time they're being watched. It's my contribution. My stamp: SEEN! It's what makes for me any outstanding movie being really outstanding: I know worse!

First things first: I have to make a statement. I don't like blogs. I don't read them. I disregard them if they are mentioned in articles I read in my newspapers.
I do believe in free speech. I would defend freedom of speech in any occasion. And yes I believe that blogs are a natural result of this right together with the emergence of internet.
So everybody can have opinions, stories they want to tell and ideas they want to share. Nothing wrong with this. This has been going on for ages.
The only difference is that before internet and before blogs I would know what type of comment, kind of opinion I would be hearing or reading before doing so.
In a national newspaper of my choice I would expect to read news stories based on facts, previously verified, and getting a journalistic point of view about a certain topic. Or I would be reading a column and would expect a journalist to have identified facts and then decided to expose an opinion. I haven't had a tv for about 8 years now, but whenever I am watching I know the identity of the person speaking and the purpose of this person commenting and exposing facts or ideas.
Now the internet. It is the best and the worse but without any introduction. How can I know if "Superblogger.net" (this is an invented name, apologies if this blogger actually exists) is a historian who has studied the specific topic he (or she!) is talking about and his (her?) commenting is justified by a strong analysis of the facts and previous reading of alternative opinions of if I am facing someone who wants to comment because she (he?) just felt compelled to do so as she (he?) has just heard of the topic and she (he?) wants to react?
When I read a blog, I have no possibility to really understand the purpose and legitimacy of who is writing. I have all reasons to believe that the person "hiding" behind a pseudo is actually wanting to vent an opinion that they might not have sustained using their own name, in their community. Just think about your last fancy dress party. Even if you knew most of the guests and could recognise them behind their costume, you have to reckon that their and your behaviour was slightly different. Boundaries shift once you get a mask. Ask Batman! Then ask Robin! Then...
And so and so and so, blah blah blah...
Here I am starting my own blog! After my above rant, the only one reaction I should get is pffff or even booohooo. Go on, let your voice be heard, as I said, free speech is something I value very highly!
Once you're done or out of breath let me tell you about me. Miss super secret anonymous, the alter ego of "Superblogger.com"...
I have no excuses. I am not more special than anyone else. I am also a person that has no qualification or justification to talk about anything. I don't wish my comments to appear next to those of Noam Chomsky or Charles Baudelaire. I don't think that my ideas are worth being quoted next to anyone who is feeling backed enough by research or talent to be writing their own books or appearing in the news.
I have studied. I have read. I have been taught in a way that raised my awareness and developed my analytic senses. I had great teachers and professors. I had great parents too. And then friends which became my extended family. the family is still growing and I can always do with more friends, influences and information. My sex, my age and my origins, they are not relevant so far in this introduction. The world I want to live into should not be influenced by any of this whenever they have chosen to read me. I don't want to hide, you'll get more info in my next blogs and you'll make your own ideas about what I haven't told you so far. You might find it relevant or not. Honestly I don't care. I am the person I am, proud of what I have become, thankful of the result of lots of ingredients. I cannot wait to see how I will be evolving. The result I don't care so much, it won't be such a big surprise... But I invite you to follow the journey as I believe that it is actually the best part. And it is the part you could have an influence on. Please don't miss the chance!
If you got so far, it is probably because 1) you have a free access computer 2) you have broadband internet at work or at home 3) you have a job, either from where you are reading this or from a place in which you can afford internet because you have a job 4) you write a blog yourself and therefore have an interest of what your fellow bloggers write (come on, the bloggers of your shared base have an influence on your image! you should definitely be aware of who your neighbours are!) 5) you are not a blogger but for some reason you googled "Charles Baudelaire" and here you got! Good luck on your paper and congratulations for your interest in reading a piece of nothingness on nothingness! 6) This might be the first blog you read, ok... Honestly I doubt it! When I check for my spelling mistakes before I post it this will be the first blog I ever read seriously (and maybe not even!), but I know that I will start checking the others (see point 4).
So back to my analysis of you, readers of this blog, you are actually someone interested in blogs, all right that was an easy one. Apart the previous points mentioned I really don't know who a blog reader is... So yes again, you live in a country that gives you access to enough money, resources, technology to get an access to internet in your free time or at a job that gives you some time to browse what random people might be writing. You are probably living in Europe or USA. You are probably in a range of the population that can access property (you have a job and or a computer). You are in majority white and you are men in majority. If you are a non-white woman living outside of USA and Europe, please write to me and let me know about it. I tend to be quite cynical about how resources, wealth and technology are distributed. I am not even talking about the world, just the part of the world considered more advanced (sic), i.e. the G7 and the few more invited to the feast of celebrating capitalism under the super brand of democracy.
I am saying here that if I get more than 100 replies from non-white women living outside of USA and Europe in the next 10 days (so by the 26th of March) I will give 100$ to the charity mentioned the most in those replies. I am quite eager to give these 100$ and would be extremely happy to receive these messages. 100 is not such a huge amount but it would still make a change. Maybe just a change in me. Maybe just making me more hopeful about the fact that not just a part of the world is able to communicate with each other but that there is much more to do here, to discuss and to share, that the participants are more and more motivated than one would think and that there is hope for new ideas and and and... YOU TELL ME!